What a birthday present!!!
I'm writing this in the puoring rain, under the half-circled roof.
Deras sederas-derasnya. Angin kencang, semuanya bergoyang.
Begitu juga rambutku yang sengaja ku gerai agar dia-tiap helainya
juga merasakan kebahagiaan mendalam yang kurasakan.
Sesekali aku harus menurunkan screen, karena angin yang kadang-
kadang terlalu kencang, membawa butir-butir air yang tidak disukai
elektronikku. Banyak yang kupikirkan, melanjutkan ambisi yang
meluap-luap saat aku meninggalkan rumah tadi siang. Benar-benar
waktu, tempat, cuaca yang sempurna buatku hari ini.
Saat inilah aku merasa semuanya begitu indah, tepat, terencana.
Bukan kebetulan kalau hari ini, di hari ulang tahunku aku berada
disini. Semuanya karena suatu sebab akibat. Aku memang harus
berada disini karena aku harus men-download beberapa
lagu buat band baruku yang baru terbentuk semalam. Tadi malam,
seusai nge-Jam asik nan keringatan kami nge-bandrek, tepat saat
SMS ulang tahun pertama datang. Sekaligus mengingatkan kalau
aku ulang tahun.
For god Sake! aku memang lupa. (all this time I kept thingking,
someone who forgot their own birthday, were just look for attention,
or not being true to theirself, some kind like acting...)
Di tangga, under the half-circled roof between windy poring rain,
aku bertopang dagu sambil tersenyum, merasa betapa diberkahinya
aku, hari ini. Kalau ini bisa mewakili, aku akan bilang kalau
keadaan ini sungguh romantis. Apa yang kurang? hujan, angin,
pohon-pohon hijau, taman yang luas dan rapi dengan rumput yang
terawat, sunyi, bebas. Aku merapatkan badanku ke dinding tangga,
biar ngga kena tempias hujan. Indahnya...indahnya...indahnya...
Karena angin membawa terlalu banyak air, aku harus berhenti menulis,
kubuka tasku, ada r*ko* menthol, mudah-mudahan bisa kunikmati.
Setelahnya, sementara hujan juga masih terlalu liar, kubaca novel
"Norwegian Wood"nya Haruki Murakami. What a perfect! Si tokoh sedang
dalam sebuah perjalanan jauh. Di dalam bis dan sedang melewati pegunungan,
lembah dan komplemen-komplemen lainnya di daerah Jepang sana, di awal
musim gugur, oh! romantisnya. Nothing I want more than be in Japan in the
beginning of spring and side by side with a Japanesse boyfriend ala Takeshi
Kenishiro. Mau tak mau, sesekali aku menutup buku dan membayangkan kalau
aku sedang di dalam bis yang sama di samping pria itu. Hmmm... comfort.
Sedang asik melamun, aku dikejutkan 4 orang anak-anak. Karena hari
minggu, areal ini banyak juga di datangi oleh anak-anak dari kampung
sekitar. Karena hujan sudah mulai reda, kutawarkan mereka melihat
gambar-gambar kartun, kuputarkan juga lagu theme song "spongebob
squarepants". Karena battery mesin ini udah tipis, kami bubaran.
What a perfect birthday gift from God the Greatest.
Sunday, February 11, 2007
Suspicious Day
February 9. Hidden Place.
I can't wait to learn how not to ruin a relationship.
But it's been quite long since I had ruined my last date.
***
Today was a very suspicious day. It began when I went to work
this morning, it was quite on the street. I was start asking,
what day is to day? what date? it was unusual than recently
days. Used to be sun shine before 8, and I got wet cathed the
office.
Today, proudly I brought my computer in a new bag. It just a
simple bag, but save enough for it. One thing, it's thin, so
I couldn'n put anything else in it, so I decided not to bring
the charger. Guess yes! I looked around the office building for
a half hour to find someone who use the same like mine.
I promised him only for 30 mnts, until an hour later he came to
got it.
I used a hairpin cuz I bought it yesterday. But I lost it on
the way went home. hoo.. too bad. Lunch time, in a rush I left
home to met my girlfriends, and... and...
YES! it was raining! rain... rain.. not to heavy but enough to
make the answer of my bad day.
About the girlfriends lunch, it's a new place, took a half hour
to find it. We're talking about everything from Rizky the cute
to Serendity and the Indonesian version movie. Then we decided
to look after some CD to watch at my place. Yes we did. But
things changed easly if I chillin' with those ladies. After the
CD picked, we went to Elsi's house. The most time, we talked
about Megawati. (*what do you expect?*) We talked about her
daily life. When to do hair cut, bath room actvities, or who bought
her underwears. The same thing happen to our president. What happen
if he really needs to piss a gas? whew.. such a thing!
In third to four of my hours, I watched 'Shall We Dance'.
Please blame and hold me from being a ballroomed.
***
Those words may not suspicious for you, maybe. Just regard that
it's just a day to share. In case, I really missed somebody,
and I really want to meet.
I can't wait to learn how not to ruin a relationship.
But it's been quite long since I had ruined my last date.
***
Today was a very suspicious day. It began when I went to work
this morning, it was quite on the street. I was start asking,
what day is to day? what date? it was unusual than recently
days. Used to be sun shine before 8, and I got wet cathed the
office.
Today, proudly I brought my computer in a new bag. It just a
simple bag, but save enough for it. One thing, it's thin, so
I couldn'n put anything else in it, so I decided not to bring
the charger. Guess yes! I looked around the office building for
a half hour to find someone who use the same like mine.
I promised him only for 30 mnts, until an hour later he came to
got it.
I used a hairpin cuz I bought it yesterday. But I lost it on
the way went home. hoo.. too bad. Lunch time, in a rush I left
home to met my girlfriends, and... and...
YES! it was raining! rain... rain.. not to heavy but enough to
make the answer of my bad day.
About the girlfriends lunch, it's a new place, took a half hour
to find it. We're talking about everything from Rizky the cute
to Serendity and the Indonesian version movie. Then we decided
to look after some CD to watch at my place. Yes we did. But
things changed easly if I chillin' with those ladies. After the
CD picked, we went to Elsi's house. The most time, we talked
about Megawati. (*what do you expect?*) We talked about her
daily life. When to do hair cut, bath room actvities, or who bought
her underwears. The same thing happen to our president. What happen
if he really needs to piss a gas? whew.. such a thing!
In third to four of my hours, I watched 'Shall We Dance'.
Please blame and hold me from being a ballroomed.
***
Those words may not suspicious for you, maybe. Just regard that
it's just a day to share. In case, I really missed somebody,
and I really want to meet.
Tuesday, February 6, 2007
Psycho
i'm just kinda stupid normal person.
just like the other normal.
sometimes I act like a smart, sometimes act like a fool.
Some other stupid normal people act too much like a smart,
and the rest too much act as a fool.
From those kind of peole, there's another kind of person.
PSYCHO...!!!
we can't separate them in "act-like-a-smart" group
or "act-like-a-fool" group.
They even smarter than the smart one,
some called them genius.
And foolest than the fool one,
some called them idiot, mostly called them "looser".
Let's mention Aristarchus, Einstein,
they are both looser and liar in their ancient century.
So, fine if peoples told you a fool, big mouth mostly.
Just say and do something!
just like the other normal.
sometimes I act like a smart, sometimes act like a fool.
Some other stupid normal people act too much like a smart,
and the rest too much act as a fool.
From those kind of peole, there's another kind of person.
PSYCHO...!!!
we can't separate them in "act-like-a-smart" group
or "act-like-a-fool" group.
They even smarter than the smart one,
some called them genius.
And foolest than the fool one,
some called them idiot, mostly called them "looser".
Let's mention Aristarchus, Einstein,
they are both looser and liar in their ancient century.
So, fine if peoples told you a fool, big mouth mostly.
Just say and do something!
Great Expectation
Diluar masih hujan, aku melihat bayanganku di layar tv yang padam.Karena layar tv ku datar, aku berharap melihat bayangan yang datar.
tapi kok malah cekung ya?
Terkadang ekspektasi kerap berseberangan
bahkan menemui jalan buntu bila berhadapan dengan fakta. Reaksi akan sebuah ekspektasi ditentukan oleh Kadar ekspektasi. Terkadang, kita melewati semua elemen ekspektasi
dan implementasinya secara diluar kesadaran.
Mulai dari;
pre-ekspektasi-ekspektasi-sub-sub ekspektasi-pasca ekspektasi-reaksi-hasil reaksi.
Other mean, dalam banyak aktifitas, kita tidak menyadari alur
ekspektasi ini, semuanya terasa mengalir saja, tiba-tiba kita
sudah sampai pada hasil reaksi, even worse, kita ngga merasakan
apa-apa, mungkin disebabkan pengenalan ekspektasi yang bantat.
For example, seberapa sering kita pernah menyadari semua alur
ekspektasi ketika hendak tidur dan mencoba memejamkan mata?
Ekspektasinya Mungkin mengantuk, tidur lelap dan mimpi adalah
universal yang mempunyai range error yang sangat sempit.
Sehingga, begitu sedikit efek reaksi negatif yang didapatkan.
Faktanya 60% dari penduduk dunia mengalami masalah susah tidur,
umumnya yang dimaksud adalah "insomnia". Dan mungkin akan terus
ditambah seiring semakin mengerucutnya piramida sistem kehidupan
(lihat piramida kehidupan).
Ekspektasi berlebihan akan memperluas range interupt yang bahkan
berakibat error-nya sebuah misi. Faktanya, kesederhanaan ekspektasi
sering dikambinghitamkan dengan perwakilan kata; louzy, pesimism,
unstuctured, dismotivation, ngga kreatif, ngga produktif.
Mungkin bila ditinjau dari layar yang datar, akan begitulah
result dari simple expectation, tapi mari kita lihat dari sisi
yang humanis, kejujuran akan ekspektasi justru akan membuat kita
lebih mengenal akan ekspektasi itu sendiri, lebih dalam lagi,
mengenal diri kita. Bukankah spirit, optimism, creativity, akan
lebih bisa dikenali wujudnya dari pribadi yang berjenis jujur dan
berkepribadian?
Hujan udah berhenti, bayanganku udah ngga ada lagi di TV, karena
aku sedang berbaring dan mendengarkan Maksim Mvrika
*bumble bee, dahsyat!*
My great expectation is, having the first, the last and the most
spectacular at once in a row!
Tell me yours!
Too Little
Everything seemed unfriendly !!!Everybody, environment, thoughts.
am I out uf date? in this growing universe?or their mind grew faster than it should.
For sure, I really need time and space to look my self in the mirror. The microphone in my ear required an extreme cleaning. Re-frage my disc.Thoughts were something I left too long in the garage.
For my capacity, i've read too little, see too narrow,heard too whispered, I was wasting too much times for my self, but for Neptune sake! I still can't figure out the ME. Being as well as sunset or sunrise seemed too impossible to behave. But being a water that seemed wiser, never make me a wiser.
For ages, I used to held my head up tight for glorious I had never achieved. Now the crown silently killed my kingdom, deeply; my personality.Can you figure a MOTHER SHIP? that was me. I could provide everything. Never aware about a little-small-tiny hole present in the hidden uf the bottom uf mine, some people recognize and diagnosed it as de-generative syndrome or a natural behave. I kept thinking the same either. Until, recently I can smell the water uf sea and gobbling my outer skin.It didn't hurt at all, nor the noise.
We usually need someone else faced us to the mirror. Better if we can see ourselves in it. This is important! I talked to many people recently, d'u know what? I could see me in them, even not a complete, perfect version, the point is, I could see me.
I woke yesterday. I hope that was my starting point. Thanks to everyone who talked to me, before, now, later.
am I out uf date? in this growing universe?or their mind grew faster than it should.
For sure, I really need time and space to look my self in the mirror. The microphone in my ear required an extreme cleaning. Re-frage my disc.Thoughts were something I left too long in the garage.
For my capacity, i've read too little, see too narrow,heard too whispered, I was wasting too much times for my self, but for Neptune sake! I still can't figure out the ME. Being as well as sunset or sunrise seemed too impossible to behave. But being a water that seemed wiser, never make me a wiser.
For ages, I used to held my head up tight for glorious I had never achieved. Now the crown silently killed my kingdom, deeply; my personality.Can you figure a MOTHER SHIP? that was me. I could provide everything. Never aware about a little-small-tiny hole present in the hidden uf the bottom uf mine, some people recognize and diagnosed it as de-generative syndrome or a natural behave. I kept thinking the same either. Until, recently I can smell the water uf sea and gobbling my outer skin.It didn't hurt at all, nor the noise.
We usually need someone else faced us to the mirror. Better if we can see ourselves in it. This is important! I talked to many people recently, d'u know what? I could see me in them, even not a complete, perfect version, the point is, I could see me.
I woke yesterday. I hope that was my starting point. Thanks to everyone who talked to me, before, now, later.
Monday, February 5, 2007
How's this jufe?
Jufe, gimana ini?
Boleh ngga aku minum nutrisari jam 2 pagi?
kalo ngopi sebelum minum air putih sebangun tidur?
Ngerokok menthol barengan sama soda kok bikin pusing ya?
Mana yang lebih bagus? Cashflow Quadran atau Rich Dad, Poor dad?
Film Babel kalo ngga ada Brad Pitt menurutmu akan jadi gimana?
Kalo Liqueur-nya Bols Blue yang Curacou di campur Mix Max-nya
Vodka asik ngga?
Mangkuk buat sup kental, yang kaya mangkok bakso ato yang kayak mangkuk cereal ya?
Gimana connect pake proxy yang di FKG? di Perpus ga ada yang nemenin.
Kok kata cewe yang di ultra disc, bersihin CD bagusan pake
minyak kayu putih? pake alkohol malah ngga oke.
Tau Gabin kan? grup jazz itu, aliran musicnya apa ya?
Sama Bob Marley kerenan yang mana?
Sebaiknya susu dulu, atau makan dulu?
Gimana ini semua? brain mu kan upgrade terbaru.
Can't think anything nie! stucked n the middle uf emptyness.....
Perpus, 18:21, tempat bermain dan belajar.
PS: be near!
Boleh ngga aku minum nutrisari jam 2 pagi?
kalo ngopi sebelum minum air putih sebangun tidur?
Ngerokok menthol barengan sama soda kok bikin pusing ya?
Mana yang lebih bagus? Cashflow Quadran atau Rich Dad, Poor dad?
Film Babel kalo ngga ada Brad Pitt menurutmu akan jadi gimana?
Kalo Liqueur-nya Bols Blue yang Curacou di campur Mix Max-nya
Vodka asik ngga?
Mangkuk buat sup kental, yang kaya mangkok bakso ato yang kayak mangkuk cereal ya?
Gimana connect pake proxy yang di FKG? di Perpus ga ada yang nemenin.
Kok kata cewe yang di ultra disc, bersihin CD bagusan pake
minyak kayu putih? pake alkohol malah ngga oke.
Tau Gabin kan? grup jazz itu, aliran musicnya apa ya?
Sama Bob Marley kerenan yang mana?
Sebaiknya susu dulu, atau makan dulu?
Gimana ini semua? brain mu kan upgrade terbaru.
Can't think anything nie! stucked n the middle uf emptyness.....
Perpus, 18:21, tempat bermain dan belajar.
PS: be near!
Thursday, February 1, 2007
kanak-kanak ^_*
Cintaku adalah cinta kanak-kanak
dan ke kanak-kanakan...
rindu yang selalu bersemu
rasa tak sabar ingin jumpa
hendak memberi segala yang manis
cemburu bila berteman yang lain
Hendak sekali pergi ke pesta
pura-pura bertanya rekan sejawat
pandangan selalu mencari-cari
tak pernah mendengar yang di depan mata
Bersentuhan adalah magma
setiap aksaranya bergema
pejam mata, buka mata...
teringat selalu perjumpaan terakhir kali
Ingin sekali menuliskan namamu
ingin sekali menyebut namamu
ingin sekali berjalan bersamamu
ingin sekali berdua denganmu
rindu, rindu, rindu, rindu
Sengaja mencari media alam
untuk menyampaikan rindu
dan bertanya-tanya...
apakah alam mampu menyampaikannya
Bila melihatnya datang
semua keluguan pun hadir
jujur sikap nan manja
semua kepentinganpun terbersit
Ingin aku membekukan waktu
demi melihatmu tersenyum
dan membaur di auramu
dan melihat lekat rona-mu
Kapan bertemu lagi
kapan purnama lagi
kapan pesta lagi
kapan datang lagi
rindu, rindu, rindu, rindu
Kompas Usu 2:30 am
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